Drowning In Silence

I am drowning in silence no one wanting to hear what I have to say No one asking to know how I spent my day no laughter finds me I find no joy to share, my love is here but he doesn't choose to care He would want things to be different, but he doesn't know how To ease the pain and not let my head in sorrow bow a life almost totally gone by and people still make me cry Do they mean to be cruel I used to deny But now, I know they do and I wish I could die I once called "Suicide Hotline" to find a friend they wait by the phone so your life won't end I have things to be thankful for, oh, this I don't deny But the hunger for laughter makes my soul deeply sigh I'm drowning in silence This sad tale has been in movie plots for ages Sadder for me because I'm locked between these pages feeling sorry for myself Who has a better right wishing to cross from darkness to light This may be the conclusion but it's not the end I'm drowning in silence with a love not a friend