Drink Away the Pain

My parents always chose to drink away the pain I'm a little different I ink away the pain I'll have a brandy and redbull here and there But I watch how much I drink, because becoming my dad is my worst fear I spent my whole childhood wishing That you would put the drink down and pay me a visit You never called the children's home even though you had the digits I hate you, because you were supposed to love me but didn't Everyday the kid in me was excited thinking you were about to call But because you loved it so much I grew up hating alcohol Since you put me in care as a kid I never talked to anyone, without my wall I wouldn't lift it for anyone because I've always been scared about the fall You ignored your kid because I wasn't as important as the bottle Been judged my whole life. But maybe I'm so messed up because I never had a male role model I willingly pay the price for my mistakes so that's why you are richer than me I'll beat my demons, and drink their tears like they're a liquor to me When you died I didn't even shed a tear I watch how much I drink because turning into you is my biggest fear So I choose to ink away my pain I can only drink so much because you used to drink away the pain