Doubt Clouds My Mind

I'm standing outside! As rain droplets fall upon me while I wonder about you... Now as I walk around in the cold With no umbrella on me... I wonder what exactly you're doing right now But then I get overvome with doubt And beat myself around... Thinking why I should even continue onward with you So I continue to stand out in the rain but crying Screaming out loud! I don't think that I can go on But even if I really wanted to break up with you I just can't! For deep within my heart I still love you just the same... Now as I ponder the situation It rains much harder... And it justifies the doubt that I'm feeling now I don't think that we're meant To stay together... Because I'm a coward and I can't go on with you As it continues to rain down upon me, I'm crying Crying out loud! You don't need me, go elsewhere I'm not good enough for you so go find someone else So leave me! It seems that I can't Even tell you that to your face... I realize that I'm acting too immature But I can't seem to follow my heart Maybe because I'm too scared... So I continue to stand out in the rain but crying Screaming out loud! I don't think that I can go on But even if I really wanted to break up with you I just can't! For deep within my heart I still love you just the same... I continue to stand out in the rain yet still crying Screaming out loud! Why did I even choose you? No matter how I may doubt and push you away from me I can't seem to! Because I'd be lying To myself for I love you...