Does It Matter?

Does it matter that I'm scared without your presence near? Does it matter I'm so torn loneliness I fear? Does it matter that I'm weak no matter the strength I give? Does it matter that your pain is enough reason not to live? Does it matter that I'm crying behind this joyous smile? Does it matter that I'm the loser through every winning trial? Does it matter that I'm here cuz I'm last anyway? Does it matter to abuse me for you know I'll still stay? Does it matter that I miss you while we're making love? Does it matter when I kiss you you know it's not enough? Does it matter that I listen even if God would condemned? Does it matter to speak to anyone when no one is my friend? Does it matter that I'm pretending to not feel just as your slave? Does it matter the emotions you're sending are taking me closer to my grave? Does it matter to take forgranted my actions in doing of love? Does it matter to show me everything except one thing, that's trust? Does it matter of my feelings my sacrafieces I have made? Does it matter all I've lost now when you've convinced me to stay? Does it matter that I'm here for you even after you've raised your hand? Does it matter...no matter what I prove I'm wrong, I'm mental and sad.