Dismissed! Battles laid down for a dissociative survivor

Thinking about us
I come undone
Looking back I don’t know
Whether we lost or won

Voices in my mind
That I just can’t translate
But I know
I’ll learn to appreciate 

I’m not laying blame
I’m not keeping score
I just wish I could find 
Who I was before

All was taken
And more was lost
A dissociative fugue 
Cost us the lot

What am I supposed to do
When parts of me 
Trapped in the past
Are forced to flee?
Nobody sees
Just how hard this can be

Cut off from reality
Locked inside
Misery remains
Hanging by a noose
The final thread
one day will 
be cut loose

We fight to run
We fight to return
We fight to live
We fight to die
When will the world see
Just how bad the 
trauma was for me

I wasn’t lying
Or making it up
I had medical evidence
That backed me up

I’ll never understand 
How a judge 
Could’ve dismissed that
Copyright © | Year Posted 2024

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Diderot Avatar
June 5, 2024 at 12:51 AM
Especially the last 3 lines. xx
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September 6, 2025 at 9:12 PM
One day I'll understand x
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