Dismissed! Battles laid down for a dissociative survivor

Thinking about us I come undone Looking back I don’t know Whether we lost or won Voices in my mind That I just can’t translate But I know I’ll learn to appreciate I’m not laying blame I’m not keeping score I just wish I could find Who I was before All was taken And more was lost A dissociative fugue Cost us the lot What am I supposed to do When parts of me Trapped in the past Are forced to flee? Nobody sees Just how hard this can be Cut off from reality Locked inside Misery remains Hanging by a noose The final thread one day will be cut loose We fight to run We fight to return We fight to live We fight to die When will the world see Just how bad the trauma was for me I wasn’t lying Or making it up I had medical evidence That backed me up I’ll never understand How a judge Could’ve dismissed that