Disguised For Love

SOMETHING MUST BE WRONG WITH ME, TO LET YOU DO WHAT YOU DO TO ME. THIS IS SAD PATHETIC, BUT TRUE. I'VE GIVEN UP CONTROL OF MY LIFE TO YOU. NOT SURE HOW OR WHEN? BUT IT SEEMS I'M NO LONGER MAKING MY OWN DECISIONS. WHEN DID YOUR LOVE TURN INTO ABUSE? WHY DIDN'T I REALIZE SOMETHING WAS MISSING BETWEEN YOUR LIES.. TO THINK I LOVED YOU AS LONG AS I DID? I HELD ONTO HOPE THAT YOU WOULD LOVE ME AGAIN. SOMETHING MUST'VE BEEN WRONG WITH ME? IT TOOK EIGHT YEARS OF ABUSE FOR ME TO FINALLY SEE, THE HELL I CALLED LOVE WAS THE FARTHEST THING FROM IT. WHAT I HAD WAS AN INSECURE BOY WHO NEEDED TO ABUSE, THEN APOLOGIZE, ONLY TO NO SOONER BLACKEN BOTH EYES...