Depression Boy

What do I do, what can I say How can I move when you have killed me. Emotionally, spiritually, mentally. I Wonder off into the World, hoping I find love, I Didn't what do I do when everyone I thought loved me has Abandoned me, left me, crying, with no shoulder to ever lean on I hurt, i cry, i tried, i even got on knees and died, just to feel some type of love from somebody. I tried to dress it up, i tried to smoke it away, it didn't work. i Gave so much of me away, not knowing that it would be a struggle to love myself. So, what can I do, who can i call on , how can i escape depression.