Delirium

As irreverent as always, there she was, following me everywhere - it is no longer possible to get some relaxation without having her near me? -. She bothers me and honestly causes fear with as little as her appear around me. She is a burden, grayish and slippery, as the worst of demons; elongated, chameleonic, tenebrous heaviness dark. Moving at my cadence, a bodyguard who had not paid. Vainly I try to flee, traveled to remote and desolate sites, cold places, and the chilling sensation to feel her behind me, soaked my feet. Haunting, spying from the very core. And that helplessness of knowing that you can not hide forever consumed me. It is unavoidable. I tried to get used to her presence, understand her existence, reasoned with and lose the fear. Without being able to thereby live in a fear rather founded. There are hidden my biggest secrets, my shameful desires, words I never dared to say... Tired and sick, quicken determination without choice, prepared a frontal attack. I no longer endured more time her daring. Anyone could interpret and use her against me, reveal my treasures, my ideas, such scraps of life. Decided to took distance, I climbed to the roof of the building, never felt so alive until I saw her so arrogant and inhuman, taunting me on the wall. -Now or never, I told myself-. I jumped over her, I was tired of being a coward. Gradually my body was close and closer, faster ... I saw terror in her eyes so I smiled instinctively before striking with all my strength and finally to fuse with her... on the asphalt, and then nothing but darkness and calm. I had beaten, had defeated my shadow. JTK. 01/Apr/2016