Deceivable Victim

Liar How dare you condemn my name to such foul involvement? Liar Do you know how much that set my insides ablaze with rage? Who was there for you since day one? Who did you always run to when you were so called in love While the one you were with was forever living in lust? You always ask how I feel; always ask how I feel about you Always ask if I think we’d be together, always ask if we’d ever be or do anything If I shut my eyes, will the questions cease? If I shut my eyes, will you disappear from in front of me? If I shut my eyes, will you finally close your mouth? I’m so sick, so sick of all these irrelevant questions I’m so sick, so sick of having the same God awful talk We’ve reached countless conclusions, said so many things But plans change like days turn into night Like the sunshine can turn into a gloomy cloud-encompassing day You keep condemning me to the other side The side I despise You keep playing the victim, the innocent little victim Like you’re the only little thing important in my life How dare you, the audacity you possess You hold our friendship in the balance over a petty resistance, petty defiance A failure to utter a simple phrase One I don’t have to mention in order to keep your attention The blame, how does it always befall me The fault, how does it always become directed at me It takes two to act, to react Whatever, I don’t know why I ever bother to care Repetitive fashion, I fall flat upon my face Like I have suddenly tripped over my shoelace I believe life has finally fallen out of favor with me I believe, I believe life has finally fallen out of love with me Or this may still be a love/hate relationship Its jealousy sounding once I proceed to seek a genuine smile spread across my face Horrific I guess my face must be to have a simple wish sliced so coldly like fresh fruit Where is the care: extinct Just like my sympathy which has drained from me like much needed sleep The more I tell myself I don’t care The more I believe it to be so I’m just so sick, so sick of it all I’m just tired and restless Sing me a lullaby And let me dream of something blissfully peaceful For once in my pathetic life