Deaths Door

I wish they would have let me go when I was at deaths door I wish it was like the past I wouldn't feel like an outcast if I died I wouldn't feel so insane or be in so much pain I hate my life just the same people always playing f***ed up games always out to hurt each other can never love one another we live to feel pain we will never be the same I feel its time to walk thru deaths door I have nothing in my life no more kids n grand kids have lives of there own my kids being all grown I want nothing from anyone certainly cant get love from that someone nothing left for me but sin I'm sure they will let me in so its time to knock on that door cause for me there is no more except to knock on deaths door