Death Calls Me

Here I go again my mind ever so wasted away, Ithose calls I hear are my death it appears, They all say I have so much to live for, What the hell is wrong with me, Why am I so selfish and blind to see, I scare myself everyday closer to the end, I pray closer for the voice who draws me in, It's me all me I'm so confused all screwed up, Meds help me some but they don't change me, I have fought death many battles against death, Sureley enough I'm still here,why do I live in such misery, please take me away to a place far above, And give me the peace i desire so much.