Dear Lord -Happiness

Why am I here God? I really don't understand why Was I just made to be used and abused by everyone Every time I see a glimpse of happiness, a small hope, it's taken away Was I not made for happiness and love. God my father , I ask you my king Am I not made for love ? Father ...lord my God...answer me Is this your answer...loneliness and darkness Was I not made for the joy that everyone speak of My physical pain is enduring but the pain of my heart is tireless Father ...lord if I cause anyone pain and suffering, forgive me Lord Is this why I live in this curse...Father erase this curse , freedom I beg. Father free me, remove the chain from my soul ...Lord, forgive me ...freedom Father God there is no life without the love and hope...there is no happiness with out you Father....My Lord...My King I thank you for my moments of joy and ask you to open that door once more...so my heart have inner peace Freedom Lord ....happiness I cry ...hope ...love...freedom My God send inner peace Lord I feel traped, there is no open door , only you can free me Father ....Father I ask for your intervention, only your hands can free me Father grant me love and happiness Father my God take my hand and lead me a place of happiness and joy Amen