Dear Evangelical Brother

Dear Brother, When we were children adults often asked us What do you hope to be when you grow up? But, our brothers and sisters were more likely, and probably more wise, to ask Who would you most hope to become? To be like? Which implies, to my unformed ear and eye, Which of these adults you know, or know of, do you like best as a mentor for your own happiest and healthiest, and most prosperous future? I am about to finish reading Iain McGilchrist's "The Master and his Emissary." And, if I had known Master McGilchrist as a sixteen year old, I would probably have said I want his life and that's the guy I want for my BigBrother! I would be his most zealous emissary. He's the one I would become just alike, twins if possible. Twin careers. Twin ideas. Twin knowledge and wisdom. Twin naturality and spirituality and natural law and ordered sacredness, emotionally intelligent communion. But, that was then and this is now. And I wonder if I ever asked you, not what kind of evangelical Christian white privileged Western capitalist doctrinaire thing do you hope to proficiently do when you finally grow up? But, instead, to find the courage to ask you Who would you, embodied in Christ, become like when you are suffering servanting in your thirties? We might have had a lifelong dialogue, not about creeds and dogma and theological departures from win/win co-redemptive cooperative economies, compared to win/lose capitalist business as secularly usual, compared to lose/lose degeneratively devilish and bearish economies, more disempowering long-term climate trends than empowering hope faith love. We might have thought out loud together about how Suffering Public and Private Servants are like a Messiah like a Bodhisattva Peace Warrior like a PermaCulture CoOperative Designer like a Restorative Justice and Win/Win Peace Advocate like a Green STEAM architect, a resilient engineer, or prolific teacher and skilled listener, We might hope to combine gospel references to right-hemisphere Revelationary Sacred Rapture and healthy left-hemisphere climate preferences for Evolutionary Secular Promise, A promised return to sacred/secular RightWing and LeftWing become whom we would most like to hear as faithful health scientists and wealth musicians, Disciples of sacred wealthy best means secular healthy reborn again reweaving returning resiliently recombining global green Body of Christ experience, feeling, thought, optimally appealing. I'm sorry for not asking how I could be a healthier and wiser gay Christian-Taoist-ZenBuddhist-Native Nature/Spirit Wisdom inspired and inspiring younger brother, more sure with your trust and inner truths than without you. I'm sorry distant homophobic fears and perhaps anger? envy? repulsion? fear of predation? (this part remains unclear) seem to have kept us from mutually asking, Who would we most like to become like together when we are in our sixties and seventies? And now, When this question seems more plausible, and immediate, I wonder how different, and yet the same, are our opportunities to experience this sacred potential for re-creating loving Earth, together, fertile, healthiest wealth of HolySpirit embodiment celebrating Her sacred historical birth Brother, Unlike Jacob and Esau, reconnected by Matriarchal Wombs culminating in reborn virginal brothers saved/not-not saved from lose/lose perdition, partition, through both universal-human/unitarian-divine natural Messianic win/win Spirit, consiliently sacred, resiliently secular, Heavenly stardust Fog embracing global oceanic dark waves, Currents of timeless flowing potential color and multicultures, rhythms and patterns and flow designs, Living Waters, truth with trust, Wombs with Ways toward necessary Light, nights and co-redemptive days More WiseElder for sinister sacred Right retributive Judge and golden secular Left restorative Advocate, still listening compassionately together, less fundamentally apart, with good evangelical humor more than bad.