Dear Depression

From the bottom of my heart I forgive thee For all the trouble you cause All the hurt, the pain, the sadness within me All the negative thoughts, fears, and flaws I forgive the weakness you bring The hopelessness and feelings of shame I forgive the lies, the guilt, the whole thing The suicidal thoughts that always came You come and go and sometimes make me cry I want you to go far away I never knew whether to live or die I just wanted to be ok You were the one that stayed by me The only one I thought cared You were my friend when I felt lonely To you all my secrets I shared And with all the damage you did I still counted on you to carry me through And with all the happiness you would forbid I still wanted someone to talk to Meds helped me deflect your power They helped me stay sane But I felt ashamed and like a coward Some part of me knew you would remain But I forgive you even though you destroy Even though you push me to extreme Even though you used me as your toy And lowered my self esteem I know you don't care or even would pretend We've been through so much stuff I thought you were a friend I've had all I can take, I've had enough But forgive you I must Though I want to forget You were the only one there was to trust Even though you were a major threat For now goodbye I'm sure I'll see you again I'll try not to let you see me cry My happiness I will regain it's only a matter of when