Dear Dad

Dear Dad, They say that you can forgive but never forget, But how am I supposed to forgive when you and I have never really met? Only seen you twice in the last 5 years Some Days it takes everything in me just to hold back the tears Dear Dad, When those words came off your tongue that day through the phone, It made it all real I was so overwhelmed, and I didn't know what to feel. You’d been here and there for years now, but your gonna be in a different state Now I'm sitting here with a birthday card that's 3 years too late Dear Father, It’s me, your only daughter, how’s life? Because I just started college But last I heard, you did too God, I wish you could understand what you put me through You know... Something I will never understand is how through all of the pain and tears I can still love a stranger. A stranger that I’m supposed to call my father But never calls And maybe that's my fault because when you did I never wanted to talk to you. You're a stranger that's constantly saying you love me And I feel like I’m being selfish by pushing you away But aren't you already? Only 6 months you said, you're gonna get better and here we are 4 years later So much has changed except your behavior. I was only 5 years old that day I waited at the police station with some lady I didn’t even know And not once did I ever ask the question where did daddy go?