Cutting Through Silence
in a moment that gave her a semblance of clarity
my Mom expressed without a shadow of doubt
at long last I am allowed to do and say as I want
it had been a very unhappy marriage
she had felt dominated and oppressed
but played her part in wilful collusion
dementia had robbed her off a functioning body
her mind was not even now a beautiful place
which it might have been had she made it to be
maybe the war was to blame for despair
the convention of until death do us part
partnership on an unequal playing field
I will throw myself into the cold river to perish
but before I drown I will stab you with a dagger
into your heart and draw blood and just retribution
darling remember that you are a champion
of swimming and therefore you will float
but it haunted Dad until his natural passing
why does she turn a knife in my soul to hurt me
have I not looked after her and gave her my love
there never was an ill-fated weight in our union
it is not your wife speaking but the illness
but he would not let go and therefore I told
of her sadness misery and utter dejection
how do you know she never said a single word of it
because she confided in me ever since I was a child
hid behind my rebellion and consulted me for support
I never knew whether it was the right thing
to speak because I don’t and he is now gone
maybe I owed it to Mom and he thanked me
looking back in sadness about her never having a voice
me the sounding board for her agony and contempt
I am not sure who suffered most from the switchblade
but self-laceration was never far from her skin
of course there have been happier memories
but I cannot brush over the darkness and anger
I love you with all my soul innocence and wisdom of age
ingested your love and felt comfort kindness compassion
but the pure thrust of a skean left an unforgettable mark
28th March 2021
Mother Poetry Contest
Sponsor Constance La France
Copyright © Kai Michael Neumann | Year Posted 2021
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