Curse of Fear
My time has finally come.
The consequences of my actions have once again caught up to me.
Though in truth i was never running.
Looking back i can't help but wonder what kept going wrong.
Why couldn't I just do it right.
To be so cursed yet blessed at the same time.
Fatalism inhibited my progress.
Fatalism weakens my resolve.
It's a battle i still fight whilst still fighting countless others.
The unfortunate thing is that i cannot say that i did not see this coming.
The present is what I've feared and dreaded for so long.
Fear lead me down paths i still regret and i see now that it is this very fear that has brought me hear.
Years wasted and for what....
I cannot look back now for there is nothing that can be done.
I must keep moving forward but it would be delusion to say that i am not scared.
This fear has always plagued me it is a weakness, a curse, an unwanted burden.
I've discarded and ran away from so many chances at redemption.
Frozen in place, ever stagnant afraid of change. Truly an acolyte of decay.
I must keep moving, i do not know the future and i fear it holds nothing but disappointment, pain and despair for me.
I don't know if i can but i must try.
I wish to at least fulfill my dream or achieve the peace that has always eluded me.
Copyright © Navar Corin | Year Posted 2024
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