Cry

Cry a tear drops down my eye as I see the pain you were in, You were my father it seemed like you were my only friend. This cannot be real, I wanted so bad for you to heal to be the same person that you used to be but all i'd ever have was painful memories. I wanted you here for my wedding for my first child, I wanted you here for everything for things father's live for. Now all I can see is the care free life that is put in front of me, My mother is more like a sister than anything she knows What's best but not like a father would. I can come home late and she won't suspect a thing, maybe I need a father to put down that hard cold disapline. I cry whenever I think about not having someone in my life to hold me down, To keep me warm, to warn me. Life is filled with hardships I thought you'd always be there to protect me. Always be there to hug me. Cancer took you away so slowly but when you were gone it seemed like just a second. I wanted you close, I wanted to always be daddy's little girl but nothing worked out the way I planned it. I cried, my eyes out now they are dry but they will never heal. The scars from tears have damage them for life. I will cry at my graduation, I will cry at my wedding, I will cry at each special event and just image you there holding a camera. Capture it daddy I will smile and say ill picture you handing me a tissue because you never left me sad for long. Cry I think i'm over that, But remember you'll always be in my heart.