Consciousness Correction

Embarrassment Anxiety Shame Envy It's so easy to fall Triggers or trip wires Constantly tumbling I must have my eyes closed But it feels like they are wide open Acutely aware and ashamed Internal reflection Why can't I be normal Perceive what others don't see Possibility of errors of judgement Saying the wrong thing But I must be authentic To fall further Authenticity is like a constant test Judge me on who I am See me and condemn me I could hide all this Model what it is to be 'nice' Perfectly capable of it But my judged self wants more I need to know To lay it all out And be deemed good enough It lasts a moment I'd love to hear You are loved the way you are Without requirement to change No debt builds from acceptance Others seem happy in their skin Aren't they? Or do we all Regret our contents But I'm deaf to acceptance I don't want to intrude What if I mess it up By continuing to be myself There's the passage of time now Years and years of evidence Perhaps I've made it I still feel it's because nobody knows