City of Desolation
I once wrote about fear and sorrow being that which kills us in prison
I was wrong and I was right about both,
They do kill us
They do ruin us,
They do give birth to despair for now I know
That before everything there is loneliness born of isolation
And it is this loneliness that kills us
For loneliness is the worst enemy to fight because it hides in plain sight
Shouting with every movement,
Shrieking,
Crying out in the crowd
Of loss,
Of abandonment,
Of the past
Always whispering too it does of yesterday,
The day before
Whey you laughed among friends,
When you could touch her face
When life . . didn’t abandon you and from the corner of your eyes it dances
Dances like a marionette,
A sickly ballerina with smiles so knowing
That you,
That I,
That they could not see it,
Do not see it
The cold chill of decaying souls lies everywhere around me waiting
The walls are painted thick with desolation deeply layered and sown of old
The floor cries out with a million gibbering mouths all starved of light
The sounds of heavy steel doors clang shut to smash the weeping spirits
And the air is thick and is heavy with broken muffled sobs for
This soulless shell of a building hungers for the lives of men
And it holds me and I am bereft of hope,
Full of malignant lamentations plenty
Cut to ribbons within the depths of my soul for no one knows
The eviscerating torment it takes to breathe,
For no one knows
The fight it is to open your eyes each morning,
For no one knows
The city of isolation will burn my spirit to dust,
For no one knows
The city of despair is alive and it wants to feed,
For no one knows
This city of desolation is consuming me whole
As I lay here I know that in the darkness to come I will be alone
I am alone,
‘Beware the loneliness,
Remember those who care about you
Hold them close in your mind,
In you heart
Keep them as a shield against the loneliness,
Against despair
I’m holding my friends close with all my heart
I’m holding on . . .
Holding on’
Copyright © Neal Freeland | Year Posted 2006
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