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I've grown rusty and unused to summoning words from a blank page - but FINALLY - there's something new to describe. School (11th grade) is over - at last - and... more. There's a party tonight - a REAL, honest-to-God, in person, PARTY - for about 30 of us. Yes, vaccinations are documented. Life seems to be beginning again. I'm eager, like a boxer before the bell or a racehorse at the starting gate. I'm an animal, long constrained, who knows it's about to be set free. I'm as disorientated as an awakened dreamer and I find myself laughing, drunk with possibilities as I try on clothes for preliminary impressions. It's hard to quash tremors of impatience. I'm sick of helpless, indifferent, pandemic necessity. I'm SO tired of boredom, circling me like a vulture, in my panopticon palace - that I opted for a respite of pure terror - I'm SO clever. I'm skipping my senior year of high school and heading off to university. I'd rather die than risk spending another year in my room(s) - I almost went crazy . There's a paper on my desk, white as a bride. It says "ACCEPTED for fall term 2021." I’m trying not to let on that I’m afraid. Is desire always a tangle of impossible, contradictory impulses? I've decided that my life is my only real possession - my own, small, life-or-death riddle to solve. I want to live with intent, like I'm aimed at something and I'm going to chase happiness like it could be caught. My luggage is open - like alligator jaws. I stare into those tan, Ghurka depths - rigid with anxiety. My sister (home on vacation from her surgical residency) sees me eyeing the empty bags. "Are you worried?” She says, “You look worried." I normally find the sister-teacher-coach vibe irritating, but now, somehow, it seems reassuring. "No," I lie - then - "A bit," I admit, close-lipped. But that's a later worry =] p.s. I write short stories too =]

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Date: 6/16/2021 2:33:00 AM
Ah, you have come out of hibernation, so good to see you back my friend. Thanks for catching us up on the world that surrounds you. Excitement awaits! John
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Date: 6/16/2021 7:42:00 AM
Thank you John! I've seen your work a lot lately - success looks good on you =]
Date: 6/14/2021 11:57:00 AM
You made it! Half a million did not, so make the most of the opportunities slapping you in the face! Aloha! Rico
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Date: 6/16/2021 7:43:00 AM
WE made it Rico - yea us!!
Date: 6/14/2021 6:53:00 AM
This is brilliant... you are gifted with words. Compose your story always... never cease to amaze us with your verse and vision. God bless you always, Love, Gina
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Anais vionet
Date: 6/16/2021 7:45:00 AM
Thank you SO much =]
Date: 6/13/2021 2:34:00 PM
Wonderfully written. Held my interest throughout. So young, and yet so brilliantly talented, intelligent. You will have no trouble with grades in college. My guess is you will pursue writing as a major. Whatever. You will be successful. Best of luck.
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Date: 6/16/2021 7:46:00 AM
Thank you! I'll be on the Pre-med track (eventually).