Can You Hold Me

Tears on my pillowcase Scars on my body, nightmares replay in my mind I need some help, because I'm far from fine Can you hold me?, because I don't know how much more I can take I'm bleeding from within, I don't know how to make it stop I'm so used to it, I'm paying for my mistakes, but I can't make the costs She left me broken, I guess its karma for all the hearts I broke Should I cover my wounds?, am I wrong for all of the scars I show? My childhood tragedies replay inside my mind daily Parents choosing alcohol over me and leaving me to suffer Leaving me without food and clothes to pay for their drink when I was a baby I meant less than alcohol and drugs to my sister, mum, dad and brother Self-harming as a teen to cope, I'm unsure if it did more damage or good? Been so broken by it, I no longer know how to manage with love I gave it a change again recently, and got hurt worse than before So I'm back to one night stands, Forgetting girls names and leaving skirts on floors Is it bad or good when writing about your hardest times becomes easy? Inspired by Nas, Rakim, Eminem, Big Pun, 50 Cent, Tupac, Young Jeezy Hip-Hop was all I had, from a childhood I saw everyone leave me So now I run and hide anytime anyone needs me I can't deal with that kind of pressure I'm trying to get my mind together Everyone tells me I'm good enough and I'll find better But it breaks my heart, looking at the pictures we designed together Tears on my pillowcase Scars on my body, nightmares replay in my mind I need some help, because I'm far from fine Can you hold me?, because I don't know how much more I can take