Broken

alone -- from the moment I wake to the moment I sleep...lonely...empty...cold...afraid...no matter that I am surrounded by others... breathless -- trying to stop the drowning caused by a mistake...a mistake that will never be forgotten...I cannot get above the surface...cannot take a deep breath...tears fill my lungs...suffocating me...making it impossible... broken -- the bond of trust between us has been damaged...the scars will forever remain...my hopes and dreams are fading...my soul is dying...nothing will ever be as it once was... crazy -- the never ceasing voice in my head...insanity...doubting my ability...doubting my potential...criticizing me...pulling me under...dwelling on my flaws... darkness -- no one has found me...I am unseen...invisible...I am unheard...silent...is anyone there...can anyone hear me...does anyone care... doubt -- tears roll down my cheeks...my vision starts to blur...I am curious what goes through your mind...always pleasing others...but when I look into your eyes I see uncertainty...I see apprehension...I wonder if you are truly committed... falling -- my thoughts spiraling out of control...my head spinning...dizziness...I cannot fly...are you slipping away from me...I try to hold on...but am starting to break... lagging -- feeling left behind...worthless...always trying to catch up...always in the shadows...my body weak...my heart pounding...my mind tired...no matter how hard I try...I will never live up to the standards...I will never be good enough... lost -- my endless footsteps along the road...hoping it leads to inner peace...and the strength to leave the past behind...but all I find are dead ends... searching -- will I ever find solace...will I ever be accepted...will I ever be forgiven...I want to feel your passion...I want to feel your affection...without them I cannot breathe...without them I cannot live... waiting -- when will you come and grasp my hand...hold it tight...never let go...free me from self-destruction...wrap me in your arms...your warm breath against my lips...are you not aware of my struggle...are my screams not loud enough...