break me further

My own death doesn't scare me But yours terrifies me I pray my last breath is a sigh of relief Sometimes I'll push you away Hoping you'll just pull me closer You could slit my throat And with my last gasping breath Id apologize for bleeding on your shirt Id die for you, but little do you know I'm already dying You see the girl on the outside But if you saw the girl on the inside you'd leave to You'd realize I'm broken beyond repair I'm not who you think I fake a smile everyday and you believe it I tell myself I'm okay and even I don't believe it I could promise you to be strong but in reality I'd cross my fingers behind my back I love you to death but I'm not sure how much longer I can love you Ive been holding my breath and trying to forget But everytime i think back i feel regrets So yeah, my death would be fine But your would break me even more