Box of Sadness To:(Rambling Poet)

My box of sadness too. A box full of sadness I store under my bed. With thoughts so sad Making me wish I was dead. With one look underneath my bed. Memories of you jump inside my head. Like a Jack in the box, who is trapped inside. I stuffed my feelings in this box. I will not surrender to any sadden thoughts. Shutting the box full of spider webs. I do not want to feel the deepness of sad, I hide. This sadness I store back under my bed. My feelings are better trapped inside. Staring at the box with my eyes open wide. Tears start to fall the ones I buried inside Following footsteps with no guide. Why did I bother to remove the lid. Sadness always makes it hard to decide The pain my heart does not want to see. Hiding the sadness, I yet have not cried. I will not release my sadness, and set it free. I have managed to put the sadness out side of me. This sadness only belongs to me. How could you leave with out telling me bye. I pretend to live my life so cheerfully. It takes a real person to bring me down. My sadness trapped behind a fake bully. Like a smile from a clown . I put on a show and block any sad thought. Not allowing my self to drown in self pitting ways. You left me alone after bringing me into this world. The one and only person who could be there for me. In my troubles and need she left me. Every one saying it might have been suicide. How could you leave us behind with misery and blame. The sadness of your shame is what I hide A box of my sadness under my bed. By:P.D.----I guess that is one of my sadness. A true one at that. To:The Rambling Poet- This is a challenge called by you. Trapped inside with a sadness. The other part of me