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Body of Change

What’s going on with my body? What’s going on with my mind? The thoughts in my head, are not thoughts of mine. His body is so sexy, yet so is she. What the hell is wrong with me? What if I told my mother, what would I say? “Hey mom I love you, oh by the way, I’m gay?” I could never tell my father, I know it would break his heart. News like this would make some people fall apart. Could I tell my friends? What would they think? Would they tell me to go away? That I’m nothing but a freak? This is the kind of thing that lasts for a lifetime. If I told anyone, they would drop me on a dime. Feelings of panic, fear, and shame. What have I done to my family name? Who can I tell, who can I trust? As I hide everything inside, I feel that I might bust. I want to be me, I want to be free. Is there a place I can seek, so I can see? I can be myself, yet not be alone? Time may pass, and that might be. But whether or not you like me. I am who I am.

Copyright © | Year Posted 2012

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Date: 4/17/2012 8:42:00 PM
Ryan, this is a very nice way to say..I am what I am... Nothing beats that... We are all strong in our own way.. it does not matter if we are straight or gay.. It is hard to hide everything inside and not knowing who you can trust.. Happiness is what makes us US! I'm not afraid to speak my mind.. I am what I am when I'm feeling lost... hugs to you...always..PD
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Ryan Hebets
Date: 4/17/2012 8:47:00 PM
I was fourteen when I wrote this. I'm 22 now. And thank you.
Date: 4/17/2012 8:48:00 AM
I really like this! Being gay is not a sin. If you love someone no matter what gender they are, that's all that matters. -Anastasia
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Ryan Hebets
Date: 4/17/2012 8:53:00 AM
Thank you.