Bleach Stained Memories

Such a common smell Used in places all over Restaurants to grocery stores to schools to bathrooms a smell this clean cant make me feel so gross Kills 99.9% of viruses & bacteria Kills the germs left from my stomach surrendering its contents Huddled over and in pain a smell this clean cant make me feel so gross I was always sick as a kid Never eating yet losing my lunch Peppermint oil that never worked to keep my stomach at bay All the home remedies and medical ones yet it still happened I had my own friend, Ralph, my own bucket My only friend in my time of need Forever stained by the clean, slightly medicinal smell It hits me like a slap Cold and biting against my senses The clean, too clean, aroma a smell this clean cant make me feel so gross I smell it all the time Away from the small cluttered bathroom Away from the hands holding my hair and rubbing my back All away from my longest friend A reminder for all i've overcome A smell, haunting me, just trying to help others It did not meant to live in my senses yet here it is a smell this clean makes me feel so gross