Better

You keep reminding me
of my deficiency 
of who I am 
and who I oughta be

Those great expectations
that haven’t been met
I should already be there
but I haven’t gotten there yet

I feel your disappointment
I feel you wondering why
You keep saying “Ricky,
why don’t you try?”

So I stop falling
in and out of you
My mind can’t be tied
to words that aren’t true 

My freedom experiment
I now know I’m enough
It wasn’t really about me
You downloaded your stuff

I think of you sometimes 
hoping you’re okay
Still I’m glad that I left
things are better this way
Copyright © | Year Posted 2019

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Manassian Avatar
March 8, 2020 at 11:46 AM
You need to be appreciated and affirmed. I'm sorry Ricky had to go through what he did but he's brought healing with his words to others.
Lamoureux Avatar
March 8, 2020 at 11:50 AM
I have no complaints Eileen, I have been greatly blessed in the ways that matter most.
Neumann Avatar
December 27, 2019 at 8:01 AM
Closure, hey. Kind wishes, Kai
Lamoureux Avatar
December 27, 2019 at 10:55 AM
Thanks.
Kinard Avatar
December 19, 2019 at 7:21 AM
I am who I am Nice.
Ravidas Avatar
December 9, 2019 at 10:28 AM
As one man said: "Be together but each on his own". A formula for success, so to speak)
Lamoureux Avatar
December 10, 2019 at 8:47 AM
Thanks Kurt. ;0)
Romios Avatar
December 4, 2019 at 12:58 PM
Could relate to your poetic majesty and heartfeltness. Thank you. Well done Panagiota
Lamoureux Avatar
December 10, 2019 at 8:52 AM
Thanks, hugs Rick.
Goff Avatar
December 1, 2019 at 11:01 AM
Enjoyed the comments Richard, well done!
Lamoureux Avatar
December 10, 2019 at 8:55 AM
Thanks buddy.
Vdev Avatar
November 30, 2019 at 9:42 AM
Living to the expectations of others is a tough job n at times a mistake. You expressed it so well in...." You downloaded your stuff "... Speaks everything. Great
Lamoureux Avatar
November 30, 2019 at 9:46 AM
Thanks Johnson. This is speaking about my relationship with my dad. If I had not escaped I would surely have been gone a long time ago.
Proxenos Avatar
November 29, 2019 at 12:31 PM
If people don't please you why bother with them, my heart stopped for a moment because our younger son is Ricky - he is the light of my life! Both Ricky's are very wise! Hugs and blessings, Jennifer.
Lamoureux Avatar
November 29, 2019 at 12:47 PM
Thanks Jennifer. Your Ricky is fortunate to have you.
Kinard Avatar
November 27, 2019 at 12:28 PM
Feels like your breaking up with me:-) Nicely done. I believe you know what your doing when come to spilling ink. Nicely done.
Lamoureux Avatar
November 27, 2019 at 3:06 PM
Ha ha, I like your sense of humour. ;0) I think you will survive the breakup *lol*
Faulkner Avatar
November 26, 2019 at 10:45 PM
This is a very touching journey to self acceptance, a wise and affirming ending as well...
Lamoureux Avatar
November 27, 2019 at 8:22 AM
Thanks Michelle.
Hamilton Avatar
November 25, 2019 at 4:40 PM
Yeah I feel this one Rick, great penning dear poet! Feelings expressed are quite relatable!
Lamoureux Avatar
November 26, 2019 at 8:13 AM
Thanks John. Blessings Rick.
Robinson Jr. Avatar
November 25, 2019 at 11:23 AM
Cutting edge slam Poetry, Reux. Living up to another persons, 'Ideal' of personality perfection is a hard ball-and-chain existence. Letting go is sweet freedom, no doubt. Braveheart poetry is a beautiful read. Love and joy always.
Lamoureux Avatar
November 26, 2019 at 8:12 AM
Thanks Freddie. ;0)
Wolf Avatar
November 24, 2019 at 7:28 PM
Powerful poem, Richard. I think of it as: 'Anatomy of a Split.' Bravo, Gershon
Lamoureux Avatar
November 25, 2019 at 5:21 AM
Thanks Gershon.
Na Avatar
November 24, 2019 at 7:23 PM
Well done my friend. It takes courage to walk away. Alot think that its love and stay but it takes two to be happy I have learned this. Thanks for sharing
Lamoureux Avatar
November 25, 2019 at 5:33 AM
It took me 11 years to figure it out. Thankfully I have had 26 years with the right person.
Wanter Avatar
November 24, 2019 at 6:11 PM
The courage it must have taken you! "My freedom experiment."
Lamoureux Avatar
November 25, 2019 at 5:34 AM
Yes it did require courage. I am thankful I took the leap.
One Avatar
November 24, 2019 at 5:36 PM
Yes.. stay away from those that bring you down.. expressed so well in your own personal way.
Lamoureux Avatar
November 25, 2019 at 5:42 AM
Thanks Silent.
Chiri Avatar
November 24, 2019 at 4:52 PM
Am emotional piece rock and what a gorgeous write!;)
Lamoureux Avatar
November 25, 2019 at 5:42 AM
Thanks, hugs Rick.
Pandit Avatar
November 24, 2019 at 3:26 PM
A poignant dialogue with emotions--that speaks for many heartbreaks. Sometimes it really is better this way--well said, Richard.
Lamoureux Avatar
November 25, 2019 at 6:01 AM
Thanks Vijay. ;0)
Cunningham Avatar
November 24, 2019 at 1:37 PM
Sometimes down the line you realise that it wasn't meant to be and parting is the best way for all. We all deserve to be happy. Tom
Lamoureux Avatar
November 25, 2019 at 9:09 AM
Sad but true.
Gauthier Avatar
November 24, 2019 at 12:27 PM
Well penned, Richard. We can all relate. Bad relationships just postpone the upcoming good one... yet we all tend to try to prolong them. We're too often suckers for punishment.
Lamoureux Avatar
November 25, 2019 at 9:20 AM
I know I was. Still my timing worked out in the end.
Wanter Avatar
November 24, 2019 at 12:06 PM
You are so good - you can really make us feel.
Lamoureux Avatar
November 25, 2019 at 9:30 AM
Thanks. ;0)
Pigeon Tart Avatar
November 24, 2019 at 10:29 AM
Oh wow, succinct excellent ink. xomo
Lamoureux Avatar
November 25, 2019 at 9:30 AM
Thanks, hugs Rick.
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