Best Friend

They told me to go with gut and guard with my heart but that armor has been penetrated right from the start. My blood runs its course by your smell that’s been captured in my veins release your toxins into my senses your aurora keeps me sane. The smile of yours could burn a hole right through my skin where your beauty took advantage and climbed right in. They warned me I’m wondering down a dangerous road I'm taking all the right turns, and none of them are going to lead me home. I wish I could call ask for directions around your heart How ironic is it that my phone is dead I see the plug But my extension cord doesn't reach that far. Standing in the middle of the room all these faces can be seen I scream out for you to look at me but you’ll never know what my words mean you glance in my direction, with a twinkle in your eye I fool myself thinking that look you gave was mine for the taking I shake my head, cast my sight down for I know when I look back at you, your face will not be found. I reach for your hand, get a shadow I hold back my thoughts No one can know. Your shoulder brushes up against mine the goose bumps on my neck are a dead giveaway you notice my slight tremble you ask me why I’m starting to sweat a nervous laugh escapes my lips. They warned me it was unhealthy that I was wishing upon false hope I’ll escape reality and rely on my dreams to give me a sense of faith of what my world could mean I’d transform myself into what you’d need but the moment I wake up I want to be anything but to be me.