Beloved Complex Community

My fetal alcoholic bipolar: “sometimes I experience low anxiety and act like a happy drunk” “sometimes, like when entering new places and situations, I experience high anxiety and act like a very bad and mean-spirited drunk with immense juvenile curiosity and overload, near total sensory loss of ego v. eco-boundary, megalomaniacal tendencies, also known as embryonically-inebriated Oppositional Defiance,” which feels like an understatement some days and nights of every day of my life since she, now nearly 14, was five. Daughter Yang and I attempted to visit Sacred Community last week, uninvited. A sole positive outcome from this 9:20 AM Sunday rather-early morning visit, is to have set the bar for achieving more positive outcomes very low indeed. At the same time, Yang seems motivated to be included and to establish new positive-healthy relationships with peers and within a familial-participatory multigenerational community. What Yang and I might be able to bring, in co-redemptive return for inclusion as invited, greeted, welcomed members Also warming the beloved threshold for my African-American *****husband to bring YinYin, our youngest of three sons, with paraplegic palsy and cortical/bielliptical blindness, with great roaring delight preference for pipe organs and human song-resonant voices Perhaps I could cooperatively partner with you and/or other interested and invested members who may already have one or more family members not able to join your community as a complete family or household tribe due to boundary issues between this UU community’s cooperatively intended culture and the often less mutual, much less cooperative, intentions of some neutrally/neurally challenged cultures, Interior Landscapes of Not-So-LoveEncultured Design. Perhaps we could talk, gather our mutual needs to optimize each family’s and community’s inclusion of diverse trusted truths. Perhaps we could find or create a low-stim focus, exercise, stretching and breathing and balanced-walking meditation, song and dance liturgical space for these mutually messed-up folks of all generations to practice a more cooperative spirituality of being with each other in safe and healthy ways, and fun; humor and mutual-performance entertainment count with big positives, like writing narrative poetry to communities you have seldom met. “What would you say, what would you do, if you dared to be true?” Perhaps we could then form a child-care cooperative and any care-givers not needed each Sunday could attend regular services, where I would love to sing tenor in your choir. I can also do male soprano voice, as needed or wanted, and preferably both. I would love to be part of your Green Sanctuary process, leading to cooperative community economic and ecological leadership in climate change responsive and responsible (informed, balanced, polyculturally decomposed and analyzed together) Earth Rights advocacy; including some reconnecting experience with Joanna Macy’s “Work That Reconnects.” Perhaps I could also meet other poets or narrative-essay writers, or even homily writers, or fiction writers, play-writes, music writers and lyricists, to self-organize “Everything Slams Universally-Unitarian” liturgical themes. Perhaps we would find and enjoy and amuse each other, amongst our multisensory-therapeutic ideas, while applying Permacultured Design and Development to both Interior and Exterior Landscapes of evolving organic neurosystems, like individuals of light and darker incarnation, and even more universal formation systems, trying to balance unitarian flow, from faith communities to political parties, from economic to ecological policy platforms for optimizing health as wealthy abundant life, inside the challenging threshold of Beloved UU (All Souls Inclusive) a “just a little bit Taoist leaning” panentheistic community.