Believe

What if praying gets you more pain? What if asking to be saved puts you in danger The more blessings I ask for, the more pain I get The more I ask for forgiveness the more suffering I get I walked this journey of mine with faith that, I will one day find happiness, laughter, fulfilment I kept believing that the creator has my back I kept believing that the creator knows me by name I kept believing that the creator loves me I kept the creator in my heart, in my soul, even after all the pain and suffering, I kept believing in the creator. I questioned the timing, I questioned my mindset, I questioned whether I deserve happiness but never questions the creator Was I wrong not to ask for clarity, was I wrong not to ask for who I have to be Was I wrong for asking but not demanding? Was I wrong to assume that I deserve some happiness? Was I wrong in believing that the creator exists?