Because of You

I've dug my nails down into the ground Broke them down to the tiniest of nubs, Digging in the lowliest mines of the African continent just to find the hardest diamonds, The sharpest crystals just to build a wall to shield myself away from you. Hands rough to the core from manual labor now, because of you. In my high tower once thought to be impenetrable, I lay face down, eyes shut tight to block out the outside world I once loved because it's reminders whither me away to nothingness if I stare too long. Then with a battering ram you crush it. My Berlin Wall has fallen. The graffiti-filled walls that once spelled out our names tumble back to earth. I'm left there flat on my butt forced to look around and evaluate my surroundings, Taking it all in. Why won't you look at me? All the trouble and turmoil you dare to put me through to get your way like no one else in the world exists, Yet you can't look at me. Stare at me in my eyes, breathe me in, feel my heat, taste my soul, Know who I am. I already know you though. So no need to come any closer. Images haunt me everyday because of you. I know you. You destroyed my home and sanctuary. What more do you want from me? Third times a charm maybe? Maybe next time the fall will kill me. A few broken bones for now, those will heal, but if you want to kill me why wait? I'll hand you the knife. All you have to do is ask. So don't run & hide. Next time you see me, Don't look away. I'll be waiting for that day.