Ashley, Baby

...and it cuts like a dagger so sharp to hear your ear piercing scream through the fog and into the house where I lay on the couch whispering to no one but the silent ceiling above me I am not worth as much as you think I am not worth much of anything I am not worth the love you have for me I am not worth the attraction you see, modesty... Honestly, I am not the man you seek I'm hiding too deep in the illusion of the meek What would you say, truly say if I said I lied to you all along that to your fright, at first sight I was determined to throw you away my cruelest intentions described like a vague prescription Can you forgive me, I doubt it so Can you forgive me, I don't know Ashley, baby, can we start over; press restart let this blow over like a tumbleweed and start anew I admit I made my mistakes and take fault in them all so let me introduce myself again 'Hello my name is Jake' but I feel so fake the words I wanted to blurt out were erased in the fire of burning desire to cast you away, come back to say it's ok and laugh right in your face as you label me 'disgrace' after looking me in the eyes but I was wrong ungratefully, satisfactorily? Never can it be, Ashley, baby you gave me the keys to your world with trust while I had none to give you, a pebble in my hand only weighted with sand and it cuts like a dagger so sharp to hear her ear piercing scream through the dark cut into the fog, entering the house where I lay, face down on the couch like an ostrich in fright as I turn up blind and lifeless unable to bear witness to the sight of tears staining staining your starry eyes twin puddles created by a fountain bathing in twinkling sunlight Ashley, baby...remember me fondly