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Anorexic Mind

What is this ticking inside of me, a heart that beats lesser than time? I feel as though I have departed into the halls of my own death, life is but an echo of footsteps fading behind my back. Am I too fat on life, this trimming of me is it to rid all but death? I look into my own reflection and see the fullness of years laughing back, as if I was a joke, yet I am a mere skeleton of what I once was. Is it an anorexic mind trying to shed my own flesh and spread me into ashless dust? I was catholic, once but parted to become something else, is it that part of me, undernourished, that feels the rest of me should starve? Has something died and left me only to masquerade as a life where my own existence is just a shadow cast upon the ground? What is this ticking inside of me, a heart that beats lesser than time?

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Cherl Dunn

Date: 11/16/2013 8:15:00 PM

In the shadow realm there is light on the other side like a reflective mirror but one only sees one side. you are not alone in this vision quest called life. we are here the soupers care. cheri and thanks for your comments tonight my friend and lady of words

Sarai Virden

Date: 10/30/2013 11:38:00 PM

Love the Title! A brilliant piece ... Hugs

Harry Horsman

Date: 10/17/2013 4:23:00 PM

The title is intriguing, then the poem tells all, superb is this,,in fact amazing,,,

Sandra Adams
Date: 10/17/2013 8:41:00 PM

thank you so much Harry :) hugs

John Posey

Date: 10/17/2013 12:18:00 PM

Great writing, as usual. You never disappoint me with your talent and creativity. I touched on looking back using a lighter mood in "Reachin' Back In Time." You'll find it in my portfolio.... I hope you like it..... Jake

Sandra Adams
Date: 10/17/2013 8:40:00 PM

i will have to go and try and find it... and thank you for your sweet comment... hugs :)

Karen Anglesey

Date: 10/17/2013 11:07:00 AM

Wow Sandra, this is so superbly expressed. So many layers to ponder when we take a look back in time. I've struggled with the ups and downs of self image from time to time. It can be so self-destructive. Love this one!

Sandra Adams
Date: 10/17/2013 8:39:00 PM

thank you Karen...good to find a recent poem of yours :) hugs

Edward Orozco

Date: 10/17/2013 10:04:00 AM

This poem is mind twisting brings out many thoughts :) I like the way you pieced this poem. I enjoyed it much! Thank you for sharing this. -Edward

Sandra Adams
Date: 10/17/2013 10:34:00 AM

thank you so much Edward :) hugs

Shadow Hamilton

Date: 10/15/2013 12:18:00 PM

many questions raised here Sandra as long as you believe in something that is all that matters. Powerful write much enjoyed soup mail Shadow x smile

Sandra Adams
Date: 10/17/2013 10:33:00 AM

thank you so much Shadow :) hugs

Richard Lamoureux

Date: 10/14/2013 4:14:00 PM

Intrestingly society does not make women Anorexic, scientists have determined that sufferers have a genetic predisposition to the disorder. Usually some life event triggers the disorder. Starvation syndrome hampers the brains ability to think logically and that is why it takes a multidisciplinary approach to help people recover from this most challenging of mental disorders.

Sandra Adams
Date: 10/14/2013 4:22:00 PM

thank you Richard...I know so many women who feel fat...I was always thin and at times feel fat and have cut calories too low...my sister has done the opposite with binge eating, and then purging...my one cousin has always yo-yoed her weight, the rest don't seem to care...I also have friends that have gone to extremes with the calorie cutting until the point of having health issues or the eating and purging...I generally try and offer advice...because there was a time when I was there....and I don't keep scales around for one reason...fear of taking that road again...

Rhonda Johnson-Saunders

Date: 10/14/2013 12:16:00 PM

Wow, Sandra! I so enjoy reading your poetry. It is filled with passion and insight...Love and blessings, Rhonda

Sandra Adams
Date: 10/14/2013 4:23:00 PM

thank you so much for your visit and kind words Rhonda :)

Poet Tacito

Date: 10/14/2013 10:33:00 AM

The "ticking" seems to be a tap on your eyes to look into its roots and feed it some sun & rain. This was a tremendous piece.

Sandra Adams
Date: 10/14/2013 11:44:00 AM

thank you for your visit and kind comments...happy Monday :)

Nette Onclaud

Date: 10/14/2013 8:09:00 AM

my, thought-provoking musings that beg for answers, sandra.. love the visceral play of your thoughts!..:) huggs

Sandra Adams
Date: 10/14/2013 9:54:00 AM

thank you so much Nette...i think most women feel fat at some point in their lives... society makes us that way... hugs