Anguish

Anguish Isn't Always Visible Late in the night a war fell, a war of midnight without a glow. He always wore a painted face. His world became shrouded in endless dark all at once. A police officer pulled him over for a broken taillight. He reached in his back pocket when asked for his driver's license; accidentally failed to grab his wallet before getting behind the wheel. The world was turned upside down, with so much anguish. Feeling he was causing more harm in the world, than good. In the middle of the floor with all his belongs he sat and hungered for the tasted of cold steel and lead. A shot was heard! This was the place of his death. Those that loved him lost so much at his passing, but were left with memories they had shared. 9/11/2017
The signs of suicide were never there. My son grew up with him so we were very close. At the time of the incident he was living with his girlfriend in their own apartment. He was working with handicapped children, and was going to college to get a degree. He had a family that loved him and wonderful future ahead of him. There was no reason for him to committee suicide.
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Scars Avatar
September 21, 2017 at 4:27 AM
you are very right, anguish sometimes is never visible, so sorry for your loss, thank you and congrats :)
La France Avatar
September 19, 2017 at 8:10 AM
Eve, CONGRATULATIONS on your placement with this wonderful and emotional poem
Webster Avatar
September 18, 2017 at 11:33 PM
So, sorry for your loss, Eve. It's so sad he didn't reach out for help. A couple years ago, a therapist once made me sign a contract that if i was in the middle of a suicide attempt I was to call her. I have it hidden in a frame behind one of my favorite paintings.
Michaels Avatar
September 15, 2017 at 12:58 PM
A very sad and heart-felt write, Eve. Sometimes there are no outward signs, but other times, perhaps we only recognise them in retrospect... (it certainly was the case for me). Regards, John.
La France Avatar
September 12, 2017 at 6:52 PM
Eve, this was an emotional write, so often there are no signs till the end
Roper Avatar
September 12, 2017 at 7:58 PM
Yes, no signs till it is too late, Broken Wings, I just wish there would someway be an intuition that would alert you... :( Hugs Eve ~`*
Dietrich Avatar
September 12, 2017 at 5:40 PM
It's a very sad thing, Eve, especially when they have so much going for them. Thanks for the note at the bottom. It makes it more powerful to know it was a true story.
Stars Avatar
September 12, 2017 at 3:12 PM
reason is reason enough ... though sad that's the way life goes ... I myself had a buddy that shot his self in the head while I was sleeping in the next room ... yeah ... they go to sleep ... we are left with a word no bigger than 3 letters ... why ... ok ... guess that's it ... boo ...
Onclaud Avatar
September 12, 2017 at 11:19 AM
strong poem, eve... huggs! please PM me on how to open my comment box on my page... i don;t know why it says Poet has turned off commenting.'.. thanks!
Pandit Avatar
September 12, 2017 at 7:02 AM
This sad story brings attention to something that is often missed--sometimes the pain is so invisible. Well depicted Eve--good luck for the contest!
Sivey Avatar
September 11, 2017 at 10:38 PM
I know how this man felt, the devastation and the desperation, he felt alone in his own world. He felt that his whole life was crumbling around him and that he couldn't handle it, alone he thought he was, and so rejected by life. I know, cause I was there at one time myself. I survived my attempt, thank goodness, but it took years out of my life to get back to normal again. But family and friends helped out a lot...I know and understand why, indescribably why. Great poem about this Eve...thanks!
Roper Avatar
September 11, 2017 at 11:54 PM
Oh, Russell, you held in a torture no one should feel and by yourself worse. My youngest son at 19 Tried to kill himself, my husband and I rushed him to the hospital. As soon as they got a hold of him of course they pumped his stomach. Then held him under suicide watch for a week. At 33 I worry so much over him because he gives his heart away to easy. I am so glad that you survived and have a wonderful lady that loves you
Sivey Avatar
September 11, 2017 at 10:40 PM
No one knew about me either...I was great at covering up my pain and heartache. My world was crumbling around me, but no one knew about it but me.
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