Am I Moving Forward If I Sit Still

Today I plan to pray/meditate The space exists for both Is 'to contemplate' a sensible path for an over thinker? Should I blow candles out, find a dandelion clock, watch the skies for a shooting star and wish for peace from over thinking? I'm not sure I'm thinking at all - it's half thoughts, suggestions that I should be worried that occupy a core part of me The edges fritter away time in avoidance of experiencing the thoughts Maybe today I'll sit with them 'The inner monologue' - it's a shame it can't be chosen, like the words in a poem Perhaps I'll choose a mantra - I used the power of a mantra as my only pain relief for childbirth, surely I can overcome negative self talk? It seems it's more acceptable for me to endure pain For the longest time I've responded "I'll see how I go" if I'm asked if I want anything for the pain of anything I need to focus on improving my comfort I'm currently drinking a cold cup of tea - I could start with that (I won't)