Alone In a Queen Sized Bed

alone in a queen sized bed 

grieving can be self indulgent
partaken of in moments alone
so needy to pull you back into my life  
my life 
ours no longer

grieving is not wet most of the time
it is dry heaving sobs of anger and 
aching skinraw untouched hours of night
crashing on consciousness unbidden
orpheus teach me

slow slips into deep seas dark as
the black side of a cold moon 
light memories like phosphorescent fish 
all teeth and no body dazzleblind
here is the gate to hell

god i hate you in this place
you have crushed my heart
scattered my love as carelessly
as a child's pass through dry leaves
what do i trade for you
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Fleming Avatar
September 13, 2017 at 1:38 PM
A powerful, powerful piece of prose, Patricia...lots of highly charged and eye-catching lines; especially like: "Scattered my love as carelessly as a child's pass through dry leaves" - love it! My very best regards, Patricia - Cheers! :) john
Evans Avatar
September 12, 2017 at 10:06 PM
This is really good. There are so many great images here. I look forward reading more of your poems. Thanks for sharing..................peace!
Breedt Avatar
September 11, 2017 at 6:58 AM
Hi Patricia, small wonder that you know my poems so well. Only you can identify as I do yours. This is raw hurt and described like a master. Thank you so much for reading mine. Thank you for all the ki d empathy. I too feel yours. I read Wordaworth and qish that I could write about stuff other than personal agony as he did. I back to read this again. Love Jannie
Cresswell Avatar
September 11, 2017 at 8:55 AM
As a grieving widow these are not emotions that can be displayed except in writing. You will write about lighter themes when you have drained the cup of despair and tossed it aside. Be patient it will come. Thank you for understanding.
Stars Avatar
September 8, 2017 at 7:36 AM
beautiful... part 2 please ...
Cresswell Avatar
September 8, 2017 at 12:28 PM
Thank you Timothy part two is coming.
Pigeon Tart Avatar
September 7, 2017 at 7:21 AM
Jaw droppingly awesome! Ouch.
B. Avatar
September 6, 2017 at 6:34 PM
I feel the pain in every word! A sad write but well written.
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