Adhd Diaries: Fostered


I open my eyes, no time to react
The bottle glass flies, my father's face cracked
Sirens at the window,my father's goin' to jail
 It's not the end though, my lonely face so pale
Just six years old, ripped from my home
But it had to unfold, drugged cuz of my syndrome
I start a new life, I go to a new school
My mind is full of strife, but I'm a fool
Thinkin' they'll come for me, depressed and suicidal
Nobody to save me, and a monster is my idol
At six years I'm in a psycho ward, all around me white walls
So drugged a thought I can't afford, it's life set on pause
And when I finally get out, I can't shed any tears
My mind is clouded with doubt, just a six year old's fears
They don't love me anymore, I'll never see them again
And my existence I abhor, my heart a prison of pain
Too young to understand, but old enough to be scarred
This life I've panned, It's just way too hard
And when I see them, echoes of how they beat me
Chance of hating them is slim, I wonder how they see me
A child abandoned in foster care, and nobody told me it'd be okay
So all I do is sit and stare, I'm plotting to runaway
Having fallen asleep I open my eyes, no time to react
I hear my grandmother's cries, her love is a fact
My heart is still broken, but my resolve is shaken
When tender words spoken, I see hope awaken
Copyright © | Year Posted 2020

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