Addiction

Don't tell me to stop I would if I could. I don't like it any more than you do but when I say "never again" I turn and begin to negotiate. I caution everyone against such actions. yet in silence when no one is around I fuel the ache that should have long been dead. I ignite a fire I should have quenched then I come out drenched in shame. A hypocrite I disdain but that I became. And they were right in all they said I could if I wanted I could adopt discipline still I succumb over and over again and put on an act to save my name. A gamble on my reputation, another day to battle an addiction.