Abandon

I lay down my aching head to see the stars above, I close my eyes and open my heart to this starry love, Subdued by the enormity of this serene wonderment i search my mind for a thousand volumous moments, Entranced and secluded i feel free and wanton, Etched deep in my soul i recall my recent abandon, Fighting this inner battle of hope and depravity, I seek to find a notion of less gravity, Alas my mind draws hazy to every derived conclusion, i retire soundlessly to the earth clenched in fusion, Troubled and plagued by my disastrous plight, I scorch my mind with an internal fight, Believing tomorrow will answer my worry so apparent, I retire for the night somewhat breathless with anticipation