A Rollercoaster Ride Derails Edited

Here I thought my life sucked and then you barged in You gave me synthetic happiness and even a little grin You treat me off and on; at your will as you please You tell me you love me then you act as If I don’t appease I have been hurt far too many times; I can’t fall for it again You tell me wonderful things then you act as if I have never been Tell me your secrets for I know you have something to hide I know there is a wickedness which dwells within you deep inside Illusion of happiness is only for a temporary high You get what you need from me then you watch me die If you just don’t feel the same you should really let me know I like to play with fire and with it make this wind blow I am an ember which you breathe on me to stay lit You like to watch me burn for a while and then want to forget Towards the end of the night you leave me to fear in fright The next day it seems alright; your passion and love for me appears to be right It’s hard to understand since you barely let me see as you unplug the cord You have something to hide; another passion or love or are you just bored? I know I cling which is not a good thing to do I feel a rage inside of me which tears me apart in two Go on you will miss me when I appear to be gone Things used to be different; the flirtatious need to fawn I guess I’m not that great as I already knew this from before Go on just leave so unexpected and slam the unforgiving door I really love you and would drop everything for your needs You tell me the same thing but your actions fulfill other deeds I think it’s time I grew up and stopped playing silly games It’s time to get serious and grow a shell to deflect the meaningless claims I will always love you but I feel so confused Do you love me or just feel the need to use