A Prayer Between Light and Dark

dear god or whatever you can begin me now begin me on a whiteboard a blackboard anything that can be erased my cookie was baked with bad blood begin me again as if I were a fish on an alien shore gulping impossible air i took myself to the edge my chicken heart clutching a chicken-hearted prayer i am resurfacing maybe drowning only ducks and whales can speak of this upwards sinking there was a time a no time when a magnificence consumed only to put me down half-eaten now all is washed over by the before & after what is left over is this ort and tittle this residual prayer a clinker of dark & light now seen now unseen dear whatever i got stranded