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A Painful Thanksgiving Night

A Painful Thanksgiving Night… As I sit here this Thanksgiving night I can do nothing else but write. My family’s in the other room So, why do I feel all this gloom? When we arrived late last night I thought for sure I would be alright. Even though it took everything in me To take that 3 hour drive you see. Each and every time I come All I want to do is run. Run away and never turn back A family bond I sure do lack. A mother’s love is what I crave But a hug and money is all she gave. My sisters and I we try and try To understand mother as the years go by. But nothing about her ways makes sense She’s cold and hard and always on the defense. Through the years she’s done much wrong But the love of my mother I still do long. Though the bad memories of her will never erase I prayed through my kids they might be replaced. Maybe they would chase away her pain And my love for her would not be in vain. When they’re around her it’s clear to see There’s nothing left, no mystery. Who she is; is what she’ll be All I see is a repeat of history. A history filled with hurt and pain To protect my children I must break the chain. This chain has bound me in so many ways It almost claimed my life - on several days. Lay

Copyright © | Year Posted 2010




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Date: 12/10/2010 10:40:00 AM
It is the season to give thanks...I wish to thank you for your support and friendship this past year (2010) Lay. May you and yours have a wonderful Holiday Season and may the New Year (2011) bring you and yours good health, and may your hearts be overflowing with love and happiness. Love and blessings always, Carol
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Date: 12/5/2010 10:37:00 AM
and learn from experience past that precious moments are made to last lovely verse thank you for sharing
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Date: 12/3/2010 12:49:00 PM
OMG this was a great read but so sad.We all need our mothers love.Congrats on you being featured.Teresa
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Date: 12/3/2010 9:14:00 AM
Wonderful poem. Congrats for getting featured. cheers suresh
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Date: 12/3/2010 5:06:00 AM
Lay, you have actually described many such families here and a wonderful job of it you have done. Sometimes constant prayer for the person is the only answer and the best we can do. Been there. I read your poem to my wife and she agrees that you have done an extraordinary job in writing this. Congratulations on your poem being featured this week, Lay. God bless you and yours
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Date: 12/3/2010 4:57:00 AM
What a beautifully written sad write. We had little growing up, but felt rich through a mother's love and my father had a drinking problem but was a good father. I realize how lucky I was. Congrats on the feature. Vince
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Date: 12/3/2010 3:49:00 AM
If this is based on truth, I feel for you and I feel for your mother..She probably has been hurt deeply by someone who she loved and the pain is under many layers..You can not change her ...You can only change your response to her..You can love your children but don't over do it trying to make up for what you missed as a child..I enjoyed reading your work..Congratulations on being featured on HomePage this week..Sara
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Date: 12/3/2010 1:19:00 AM
Wow, this was quite powerful! Although I can relate on some level with the family dysfunction, I am reminded through your words that I should cherish the positive relationships I do have. My mom and I have had a turbulent relationship, but I know things could’ve been worse. To cope, I also remind myself that she has done the best she could considering that the cycle probably began even before her mother's mother. So yes, in the end we must break the cycle. lol, and no $ here either! Good luck!
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Date: 11/29/2010 7:39:00 AM
Thank you so very much Carol.
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Date: 11/29/2010 7:08:00 AM
A sad but well deserved featured poem you have here Walayee. May you have many more. Love, Carol
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Date: 11/27/2010 8:56:00 AM
Dear Lay, it breaks my heart to read this sad poem today. Please know that you can not change anyone. They have to desire change. As a Mom you must do all you can to protect your children from negativity, give them the love and understanding they deserve. You can still love your Mom but don't let her past spill into your future. Love, Audrey
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Date: 11/27/2010 8:33:00 AM
Dear Joyce, As I read your comments my eyes filled with tears and my heart filled with emotion. What you said is what I've felt for so long... I will have the strength one day. Thank you...Lay
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Date: 11/27/2010 8:04:00 AM
Perhaps dear Heart it is time to quit trying. Start a new tradition of love with your own children. I know another fine poet who had a mother like that. She has decided that her mother was probably undiagnosed with a mental problem and has moved on from it. Your life should not be sacrificed on the altar belonging to the past. Love, Joyce
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Date: 11/26/2010 1:27:00 PM
It's very painful and heart throbbing write with all the sentiment and emotions, enjoyed, Walayee
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Date: 11/25/2010 7:42:00 PM
very nice =) so sorry.... with love always Lizzy.b <3
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Date: 11/25/2010 6:07:00 PM
very well penned Lay, very sad subject, stay strong
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Date: 11/25/2010 5:58:00 PM
So sad but I love the way you presented it. Happy Thanksgiving! .....Karla
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Date: 11/25/2010 5:29:00 PM
what a sad poem - sometimes to escape negative people you have to break the chain walayee (hugs)
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