A Man

He was a man, he was my man Yes! A man enough to propose me But not a man enough to know exactly the meaning of that He was a man enough to break my pride That is my virginity i am talking about The source that made me to be called a woman I thought he is a man, only to find out... That he is not a man enough. He was a man, my man A man enough to lure me into his home To steal my love and all hope that i had And simply ran away with them... But he was not a man enough to realize how painful that was to me My eyes saw but oh...i couldn’t identify My mouth couldn’t tell the tale of hell he put me through Just because i though he will be a man enough A man enough to realize and decide to change I probably told myself that i will be strong and bear it But deeply inside of me i could feel the heavy burden that my soul was carrying Slowly i pushed but surely i was dying unaware I tried to protect him and hide his failures By pretending like everything is alright Because i thought he will turn to be a man enough A man enough to change his ways of treating me A man to appreciate my presence and support Only to find out that i was deceiving myself He was not ready to be a man enough It became hard! Harder and more harder than i thought I tried...i tried so hard to spill the juice that was bringing the sour taste in my life But even though he didn’t notice a single drop of it He was not a man enough to taste it Jut to feel what i was going through I wished to turn his blindness into a new light To turn him to be a man enough to protect me Because i was not ready to let go I tried to light on hundred candles and more Even that didn’t shine enough to fight away the darkness disappear I picked a beautiful bunches of colorful flowers Not even the sweet smell of them ever turned his sense of smell into place I collected the special puzzles together Neither one of them matched each other for me To build up the tower of whom he was not nor what his heart was capable of Just because he was not a man enough to regret I used to think that he is a man of my dreams Because he was a man enough who fathered my kids The flesh that formed part of me and made us one A that i thought he will be a man enough A symbol that i wanted my kids to be proud of Yes i became so unfortunate to find out that he is not who i thought he is.