A Life Pretending

I could go thru life pretending that it didn’t really happen that way. Then I wouldn’t have to deal with thinking all these things today. I could go thru life pretending that things were really all quite good. But then I’d have to tell people things were great growing up in my neighborhood. I could go thru life pretending that it didn’t effect me much. And act like my childhood was wonderful full of happiness, love and such. I could go thru life pretending that it was really all okay. And carry on forever it might be easier that way. I could go thru life pretending that I love my mom and dad. And all the memories that I have are of treasured times we had. I could go thru life pretending that this is how life goes. We play the hand we are dealt and then all thru life it shows. I could go thru life pretending that I’m the same as all of them. But I’d be lying to myself and other lies from there would stem. So as I go thru life pretending I will hold my head up high. For it is said to have gone thru this makes for a strength you can’t deny. I still go thru life pretending but I am not sad anymore. For I have lived and learned a lot I know now, life doesn’t keep score. And when the end of life comes pretending I will remember proudly with a smile that thru it all I did my best and now I get to rest awhile. 12/2016