A Letter To My Dearly Departed

I've been lying here in ache, this past week I've been awake. I roll over and groan, I can't believe you are gone. Can you hear my chest pump, as I tug at this lump? I need this chaos to be over, please,God, give me strength and composure. I gnash my teeth my head is pounding, perks of no sleep and in drink I've been drowning. I glare at the sun in its glistening glory, I hate it, I'd rather it be dark and lowly. I lie in our bed,my bed,the bed, and in silence I wonder,has the dog been fed? It's been a month now or a week or two past, and I really need to know how long this will last. I miss you,you know your smile and radiant glow I miss you,you know, 'tis why I let my tears flow and they died you should know, the poor trees we tried to grow but I miss you and hope you know, more love I wish I could show.