A Letter To My Dad

Words recess and my heart weeps When I pen a tribute to you... How could that even happened? We were three and you are gone I don't even like to use past tense when it comes to your presence... I used to hear" kutti" 100 times a day, Now my ears bleed without hearing your voice... Starting from a tooth paste to the bank balance Every decision was taken by you. Now, when I am demanded to get death certificate for you, Do you know, how it hurts? Empty chair and cot and reading glasses remind you often; The carrom board and pallanguzhi we played are nearly orphans... No matter how old I am, You always treated me as a kid. No matter how poor you were, You discerned me as your princess For the past 1 year, you went nowhere without me, But on that particular day, from where did you get that guts to leave me? You have done no evils And so you are in heaven and there, You may get everything you desire . But just tell me, Do you have a daughter like me, there? Who thinks of you daily, Who cries for you , Who wishes to utter trivial stories to you, Who wants to share every news with you, Who craves to laugh and play with you, and who knows nothing but you... You left your last breath that day, But I am grappling to breath now every day... So, you may ask, "Then why are you still there, come join me" It's because of your wife, my mom, I am living here... You had a harsh heart to leave your loved ones, But my heart is a feeble one... Dedicated to my dad who left us on July 05 2020.