Grief: a Tribute To Carolyn

"To those still confined in the worldly realm, no legacy I leave, just a kiss that carries rapidly vanishing memories, my final farewell" _ Carolyn Devonshire ___________________ since your death Carolyn ... I have been in ... a void unfathomable the diagnose of cancer a few weeks ago had left me in shock and denial and there was no hope ... ~ the cancer had spread all through your body and your fate was written in the book of life and bargaining was useless ~ so I have been meditating as I often do when I feel hopelessness I breath in and out like ocean waves and close my eyes and I am falling into emptiness ... until I see blue ocean waves crashing on a beach ~ and you are barefoot and carefree ... kicking the waves you look up smiling and wave to me and then one thought to the next merge and mingle as I reverie our friendship over many wonderful years ~ in a trance I write words to honor you and abandon myself to pockets of time words we said and words you have written and flickers of your memory that will haunt me evermore oh, I have been in a daze ... a void of grief in a waking dream where I stumble lost ~ you are at peace now free of all pain walking some heavenly ocean ... Carolyn, I must accept your death and these flickers and memories ... holding each one inside my heart where reveries and reality meld and I will treasure each gift given ... especially the ocean shells ~ _____________________ August 8, 2021 Poetry/Free Verse/Grief: A Tribute to Carolyn Copyright Protected, ID 08-1379-509-08 All Rights Reserved, 2021, Constance La France Written for the Premier contest, The Void sponsor, Unseeking Seeker, Judged 08/11/2021 Eighth Place