My Broken Heart

~Conversation With My Broken Heart~ Since I woke up today my heart has been complaining why lately I am tormenting it, why cant I leave it alone, why am I pushing it to the limit of being constantly in pain, why don't I have a nice conversation to reach a solution for the coming future and try to treat our days respectfully. I have been adding a lot of pressure on it out of this dark room, its agonizing, it cant take it anymore, I felt it whispering to me please just be more tolerant & pray as this era is a lasting one. Forgetting your passion to survive will wear me off and destroy us due to your broken heart. Life gets harder by the day, I know your crying as your partner left you after all those treasured years, be ready to fight the hatred that devastated your soul and integrated revenge against him, instead of trying to find tranquility. Together we will beg your thoughts to accept the unacceptable and do your best to never get discouraged. Aging is a process we cannot stop it from happening, knowing that you have to be reasonable to ease our everyday, how can we find some peace during this episode of instability, you have to regroup to remove that heavy burden you are adding daily on me, you are destroying my strength, you are torturing me, you are chocking me, I cant breath anymore, have mercy on me, you have few years to live, together we will find some peace to ease our pain. Talk to me, I am here to help you, survive with some common sense remember tomorrow`s life is too late; live today, we can live remembering some of your past happy moments, and you should hold up to your children that warming mother, do not trespass on your solitude, choose your priorities, let it be them. Open your door and take me with you, but first remember you were a pretty woman, you went to the hairdresser,you put make up, you get dressed, you phone them up your friends and arrange an outing, they also rely on you, help them survive, realizing you have a lot of friends who miss you and depend on you, they became unsteady because of your refusal to see them to go anywhere with them. You were a strong person, now you weakened me, you were a good fighter, now you are taking all the blows and not fighting, I am tired I need to rest, to laugh, to drink a glass of wine, I need to feel and look alive, suffocating me will reach your children and they will become helpless because they love you so much and they do not want you to remain in that stage of helplessness, a no return to survival. You know the more you add tension on me, the more by the minute I wont be able to support you we will perish, is this what you want? what about your children who adore you? They have blurry eyes lately as you intentionally stopped sharing your unsteadiness of your broken heart since your man of 43 years took the door a month ago, you pushed him away as he does not deserve your love, he betrayed you with another woman, and you are sure of that. Please retaliate against the man who left you with a broken heart by wanting to love life, it is still beautiful without him. Therese Bacha 30/3/2013