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A Dark Cloud

                                         A Dark Cloud  
Why do I cry when I don't feel like crying?
Only because my pain increases daily until 
it became intolerable, indescribable over the days
it got worse.                        

Why do I laugh when I don't feel like laughing?
Only because I feel awkward in society the most
I wanted was to get away.

Why do I eat, when I don't feel like eating?
Only because my body wants to agonize
I feel i have a very long way to go in life. 

Why do I drink when I don't feel like drinking?
Only because I have to humidify my dead body
& my tears will water the roses.

Why am I here when I don't want to be here?
Only because nobody wants me & I was 
forbidden to travel.

Why do I stay when I don't want to stay?
Only because I have no choice I was unaccepted
& my freedom strangled.

Why do I miss when I don't want to miss?
Only because I want to suffer as i knew 
what they wanted from me.

Why do I dream when I don't want to dream?
Only because my dreams are dreamless they 
went down the drain.

Why do I feel lonely when I don't want to feel lonely?
Only because of my aloneness every moment changes
I get scary and cannot control my nerves.

Why do I phone when I don't want to phone?
Only because I miss the echo of a voice when
I answered that voice avoided me.

Why do I wake up when I don't feel like waking up?
Only because the bell rang just to relate to anybody 
but there was nobody.

Why am I in pain when I don't feel like being in pain?
Only because my pain has no end it cant stop bleeding.

Why do I dress up when I don't feel like dressing up?
Only because I cant stay naked winter is at the door.

Why do I go out when I don't feel like going out?
Only because time has to pass away & my 
memories have to fade astray.

Why was I born, when I don't feel alive?
Only because my mother helped me to 
stay alive.

Why did I marry when I din't want a husband?
Only because I was forced to get married all 
I wanted was to fly away as i couldn't stay.

Why am I in love when I don't feel like being 
In love? only because I have to love anyone
and our love seemed inevitable.

Why do I run when I don't feel like running?
Only because the doctor told me so & someone
was following me, I got scared had to be gone 
gone away.

Why am I angry when I don't want to be angry?
Only because my thoughts are hurting my system 
was a blur I couldn't wait for my fate.. 
Why am I a mother when I cant live with my children?
Only because I decided to run into the woods and hide, 
because I am getting older and maybe I can die.

                                      Therese Bacha                     
                                          5/4/2013        (Win No. 4)

Copyright © | Year Posted 2013

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Date: 1/22/2013 10:29:00 PM
gosh, it's so interesting how you gave very honest answers to these questions. I can't say I would answer many of these in the same way, but I appreciate your sincere nature and I think you are a very feeling person. This is what makes you unique and gives you a poet's soul. Luv, Andrea
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Therese Bacha
Date: 1/22/2013 11:26:00 PM
Andrea my nightly friend visiting me.....thank you so much...yes i answered according to how i was feeling.....thank you for the beautiful words that come out straight from your heart to my home.....distance does not seperate us as friends....i am so grateful daily. I do not feel alone at all......Love Terry xoxoxo
Date: 1/21/2013 3:05:00 PM
the whys are hidden deep, to haunt us as we sleep, shut up johnson not a peep, and self comes analysing :)
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Therese Bacha
Date: 1/21/2013 3:44:00 PM
My favorite young man,,,,,thank you Don,,,,please don't shut up,,,,,,xoxoox Terry
Date: 1/18/2013 4:07:00 PM
Why do we write when we don't feel like writing?..... Because we are writers. Great stuff here. I truly enjoyed this post.... Love ya much...... Jake
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Therese Bacha
Date: 1/18/2013 4:54:00 PM
Thank you make me feel good xoxo Love Terry
Date: 1/17/2013 6:51:00 PM
Why only because. I really liked and enjoyed this. It makes a lot of sense. Why do I run. Because the doc. told me to. My doctor told me to walk, since I had my heart surgery. Thanks for sharing this wonderful poem. Lucilla
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Therese Bacha
Date: 1/17/2013 7:02:00 PM
Hi Lucilla....yes walking does a lot of good especially with the music you would like......thank you for passing by...Love Terry
Date: 1/16/2013 5:59:00 PM
This is a very heartfelt write you have here..So much all locked up inside.It's beautiful! A Fav for me<3 (o:
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Therese Bacha
Date: 1/16/2013 9:00:00 PM
Thank You so much because you felt my pain....Writing is the only time where i feel i can dig out whats in my depth...Good night..xoxo Terry